सगळ्या बापांसारखेच,
आपल्या बापालाही काही कळत नाही
याची खात्री पटल्यानंतर…
मला ह्याच शाळेत का घातलं?
फुटबॉल ऐवजी क्रिकेटला का नाही टाकलं?
असे आरोप केल्यानंतर…
बाप आहे ना, तो चुकतोच. आपल्यासारखा स्मार्ट तो मुळात नसतोच हे समजून चुकल्यानंतर…
मग तू स्वतः बाप झाल्यावर,
वैतागून पोरांना ओरडून झाल्यावर
प्रेमाने जवळ घेतल्यानंतर…
कधीतरी आठवेल का तुला
लहानपणी तू शांत झोपल्यावर,
कित्येकदा तुझ्या केसांमधून हात फिरवत,
हळूच तुझी पापी घेऊन,
तुला एकटक पहात असतांना
भरून आलेले माझे डोळे.
माझ्या गालांवरून ओघळणारे ते पाणी
कधीतरी उतरेल का तुझ्या डोळ्यात,
माझ्या हळव्या आठवणीने
मी नसल्यानंतर?
There are few songs that grab you instantly by intensity of the music, lyrics or by sheer brilliance of the voice that conveys emotions so effortlessly.
बहुत दुखा रे, बहुत दुखा मन from Mukkabaaz is probably one song where all these three are interwoven so beautifully that it is almost impossible to choose one as the winner.
Anurag Kashyap needs no recommendation – he is one of the most interesting film-makers in Hindi film industry and I rate him highly in spotting new talent – not only in actors, but also among story-writers, directors, musicians, singers, lyricists and so on. This song बहुत दुखा रे, बहुत दुखा मन has few interesting stories about it as well.
Mukkabaz – The Film
I have been impressed with this films ever since I saw it – especially Vineet Kumar Singh is super impressive – given that he has not only acted exceptionally well in the lead role, but he is also the writer of the story of sportsman’s struggle. Vineet Kumar is an Ayurvedic doctor by qualification, pursuing his dream to be an actor and a film-maker. Anyway, this post is more about the song, not so much about the film – but it is definitely one of the most interesting films of 2018.
The other songs of this film are also powerful and have varied range – from folk to rap, but I’ll skip them in this post. 🙂
The Lyricist – Hussain Haidry
Hussain Haidry got fame with his viral poem – Hindustani Musalman at Kommune, a performing arts forum in Mumbai. He is a chartered accountant and an MBA for IIM, Indore, who left his corporate job in Kolkata and came to Mumbai to pursue his passion to be a writer and poet. He is already famous in literary fests and has written 7 songs in Mukkabaaz. I’d be following this new lyricist curiously to see his journey in the films, he seems to retain that poetry element even in the film songs.
It is that simplicity, intensity and flow of Haidry’s words that take this song to a new level – set in the rustic UP tone and dialect, these words literary make you feel the agony of separation. You can almost feel those tears while listening to बहुत दुखा रे, बहुत दुखा मन हाथ तोरा जब छूटा… And my heart almost skipped a beat while listening to those last lines in the baritone voice of Dev Arijit for the first time – मोरे हाँथ में तोरी हाँथ की छुवन पड़ी थी बिखरी… Of course, music and singing bring those words alive.
Musician & Singer – Rachita Arora
I believe Rachita Arora is the magic in this mellow, melodious song – she is the composer as well as the singer along with Dev Arijit (male voice). Rachita is trained in Hindustani classical music and she has done few other films including Newton in the last couple of years. However, this indeed seems to be her big break and her work here is versatile and distinctive. She was introduced to Anurag Kashyap by Makarad Deshpande and in this conversation she fondly recalls her year-long journey with this films while composing its songs.
This classical based song starts with simple but mesmerizing tune and with powerful musical interludes. The way singers softly sing बहुत दुखा रे, बहुत दुखा मन makes your heart melt. And both the singers capture emotions accurately – while the female voice conveys more of pain and sadness, the male voice exudes intense pain as well as anger – and that anger becomes more prominent towards the end of the song.
Rachita’s voice is unbelievably sweet and soothing, feels almost like a fresh breeze on a summer afternoon. The only other equally mellifluous voices that I can think of among contemporary singers would be Shreya Ghoshal or Monali Thakur – it would be exciting to see what kind of songs she gets in the future. In facts, being a talented musician herself, it would be more interesting to see what kind of songs she picks up for herself in her own projects as a composer. Again, she is another new talent that I’d love to listen to over the next few years.
I couldn’t find much information about Dev Arijit and IMDB shows only Mukkabaaz for his name, though I could fund this Durbin song by him on YouTube. He has picked up tone and emotions quite well in this song as well.
The connect…
Somehow, I am always fascinated by this image of ‘हाथो में हाथ‘, loved it in Swanand Kirkire’s Baawara Mann (बावरा मन) as ‘इस सयानी भीड़ में बस हाथोमें तेरा हाथ हो’ or his lines ‘आज हाथ थाम लो इक हाथ की कमी खली’ from the title track of Khoya Khoya Chaand, also loved this image in Gulzar’s words हाथ छूटें भी तो रिश्ते नहीं छोड़ा करते and I love it in this Haidry’s song as well.
Beyond the obvious romantic expression, I think ‘हाथो में हाथ‘ is also about the human connect, bonding and relations. ‘हाथो में हाथ‘ is knowing that you have someone with you, someone you can count on – a friend or a companion. This song voices the pain of separation, of losing that holding hand of the beloved. I have lost quite a few good friends in the last few years due to various reasons, I still feel that pain, I still miss that holding hand and connection that I shared with them. Anyone who has experienced separation of the beloved even temporarily can relate to this song, Haidry’s words and Rachita’s tune as well as singing bring it alive.
There are some moments in this song when there are hardly any instruments playing in the background and the singers hum those words gently, almost like whispers – I get goose bumps every time I listen to those lines in this song.
These days I mostly believe that I am not as sensitive and sentimental as I used to be, but then there are times when I am proved wrong, and this is that one song….
बहुत दुखा रे, बहुत दुखा मन
सांझ का घोर अंधेरा मोहे
रात की याद दिलावे
रात जो सिर पर आवे लागे
लाग बरस कट जावे
आस का दर्पण कजलाया रे
लागी मोहे झूठा
बहुत दुखा रे
बहुत दुखा मन
हाथ तोरा जब छूटा
सांझ का घोर अंधेरा मोहे
रात की याद दिलावे
सांझ का घोर अंधेरा मोहे
रात की याद दिलावे
चिट्ठी जैना ऊ देस
जो देस गए मोरे सजना,
हवा के पर में बांध के भेजे
हम संदेस का गहना,
बिरहा ने पतझड़ बनके
पत्ता पत्ता लूटा,
बहुत दुखा रे
बहुत दुखा मन
हाथ तोरा जब छूटा
सांझ का घोर अंधेरा मोहे
रात की याद दिलावे
सांझ का घोर अंधेरा मोहे
रात की याद दिलावे
धूप पड़े जो बदन पे मोरे
अग्न सी ताप लगावे,
छाँह में थम के पानी पियें तो
पानी में ज़ेहर मिलावे,
धूप पड़े जो बदन पे मोरे
अग्न सी ताप लगावे,
छाँह में थम के पानी पियें तो
पानी में ज़ेहर मिलावे,
तन की पीर तो मिट गई
मोरे मन का बैर ना टूटा,
बहुत दुखा रे
बहुत दुखा मन
हाथ तोरा जब छूटा
मोरे हाँथ में तोरी हाँथ की
छुवन पड़ी थी बिखरी
बहुत दुखा रे
बहुत दुखा मन
हाथ तोरा जब छूटा
बहुत दुखा रे
बहुत दुखा मन
हाथ तोरा जब छूटा
– Written by Hussain Haidry, Composed by Rachita Arora, and sung by Rachita Arora & Dev Arijit
